Ordinary Life gone Awry - Could it rain ne more??

Aw man, my first honest to goodness rainy day at BSU. The wind is whippin and the rain is drippin. My umbrella has already blown up on me once, hopefully it will calm down by the time i go to astro at night. If not, Casey and my walk home is really gonna suck some booty. It is times like this that i feel very alone here- when i eat lunch in my room cuz most of my friends have class at this time and Sarah is freakin out cuz she has a booty load of homework. Libby is eatin with Dave (aww) and my best friend is of course eating in a cafeteria at Lawrence Central High School. I just wonder, has anyone out there experienced such a huge missingness (lol, what was that word?) for someone that you feel like no matter how happy you are at a place where you know you HAVE to be, you can't be TRUELY happy until you are with them again? I know i probably sound like a whiny girlfriend, but i dont think anyone knows how freaking EMPTY i feel. Like the happiest i have been here was when we went to the foam party and were together. I just feel like a big part of me is missing missing missing. Sigh. But it is nice up here, even if the food is for crap. I might be getting in the praise band at the Campus Christian house (*pukes from nervoousness*) and i cant believe how cool that might be. Lol- Vicki- I'm also going to be a GREETER!!!! hahahahahaha, lets not talk about that, kk? :)
Sigh...still pouring...40 minutes till i have to head to class...